I was suicidal at 17

I went to seminary openly gay

I lived as a man for 10+ years

I fell into drugs and gay escorting

I worked as a trans prostitute

I thought the LGBT community gave me what I had been looking for

I was shot in the Pulse night club shooting

My double life came from isolation and loneliness

I was became obsessed with porn & webcams as a teenager

I lived as a woman for 18 years

My childhood confusion lead me medically transition and grow a beard

I wanted to take control again of my body.